Reclaiming The First Blood by Laura Deva

I was in pain for all the moon blood lost with shame, with guilt, without consciousness of it's purity of it's magic of it's power.

I was in pain for all the girls and women of this world that hide their gift, their love, their mystery flourishing and growing every month within the womb of creation.

I was in such a pain that since my first moon blood in this body when I was 10 years old, I've suffered heavily physically and emotionally for about 2 to 3 days every month.

Today I'm 34...

... 576 to 1152 days of menstrual pain in this life, crying the loss of life, the loss wisdom, the loss of magic, the loss of creation.

I use to hate my blood, being disgust by it, hate the time of my menstruation feeling it as a pure handicap, always there on the wrong time. I hate it so much that I forgot the memory of my first ever moon blood. Categorised by my selective mind as pure trauma, my lost memory of a moment that should be celebrated with joy and reverence as being the gateway to womanhood, is floating somewhere in my unconscious.

So today I've decided to make a ritual to reclaim my first blood and by it, reclaiming the lost first blood of the feminine in every men, women, existence!

I've let myself feel into the pain, descending into my womb, and through it into the womb of the Mother. Bleeding freely in my bed I accepted to feel ALL the pain, to cry all the tears without exception...

...and to forgive, to love, to celebrate, to anoint my body, my face with the pure elixir of creation.

The pain transmuted instantly into bliss.

RED WATER OF LOSS BECAME RED WATER OF LOVE

Today, I reclaimed my FIRST blood…

Laura Deva, 34, Melbourne, Australia, March 28, 2018